2 weeks ago we had our Maternity Pictures taken... I was very close to canceling the session due to many factors, the main one being just how unhappy I have been with my body. In the last 8 1/2 months I've gained 35+ pounds, on top of the 15 pounds I gain before/after my miscarriage last year. It doesn't help that daily I'm told how large I am, how there must be twins in there and even that I look like a cartoon. Yup someone actually tells me at least once a week how cartoonish I look. I don't know what it is about pregnancy but people think they can make comments about your weight and appearance without any filter. Some days I let it roll of my back, some days I get really angry but most days I just get really sad. All the comments have made me look in a mirror and see fat & cellulite instead of amazing body growing this little human, and that makes me sad. On top of the weight issues I am no longer able to walk without pain, which of course seems to give everyone license to tell me how much I waddle and comment on how fast or slow I am today. I'm often in so much pain that I tear up just trying to walk to the bathroom, so the comments on how ridiculous I look have started to get me down. But despite my problems I decided to keep my maternity photo session even though I knew how unhappy I would be once I saw them.... instead our photographer sent me back that most beautiful images that took my breath away. Looking at them I don't see the weight or the pain. Instead I see so much love and happiness. Love that both Dan and I have for each other and for little one. Sure my belly does look quite large in the pictures- but seeing as I was 8 months pregnant at the time it should look big. Inside of it is growing our little Poppy who will be here before I know it! My favorite pictures are the ones where you can see just how much Dan makes me laugh... it's hard for us to get our pictures taken because he really does make me giggle too much! I love how our photographer was able to really show the intimate moments between just the two of us. Hopefully now when I hear these ridiculous comments I can think back to those pictures, and realize that pregnancy is amazing and beautiful... and more importantly that I am amazing and beautiful as I grow this little guy in my cartoonish belly!
PS anyone looks for a GREAT photographer in Los Angeles check out Meesh Photography, Michelle is AMAZING: http://www.meeshphotography.com/
Number three is my favorite because you can really see it all, and you are perfect. Then I like the heart photo, then the one that you posted sitting on the beach looking out, then . . . . .they are all so good. I sure wish they had those available when I was pregnant with you! What a GREAT idea!!!!
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